Grace upon Grace

Today I responded to this question from my Advent journal that I received from the great ladies of the community of Blessed Is She.

The question is; when or where have you experienced the presence of God in a powerful way? At first I delayed in writing and then my pen began to speak for itself. I share my words in the hope that my reflection may ponder you to reflect on your own answer to this very same question .

“I experienced God in the interior of my mind and heart in images too hard to describe with human tongue- in peace beyond words as I ponder in silence. In the hollows of sounds interrupted only by the occasional noise of nature outside of my mind. These images bring thoughts of life experienced long ago with family now gone but yet present in memory. These thoughts bring consolation and restored hope in dreams of a future not yet my own. They my eyes see, I see Him in all things especially in the mountain, He is etched out there a perfect vision for me to view, his face becomes as day, no one but I can see it or describe it, it is too beautiful for words, but He is there, there is the peace and presence of God.” Diane 2017.

May your mind and heart also find peace in the interior places where God can enter into the silence abode , may you find rest with Him there as you prepare for his coming this Advent and Christmas season. And may His Grace build upon grace this day. With Advent Joy and Love , Diane

Wasted Spaces or Fertile Ground

It has been sometime since I have had sometime to ponder and write for my blog. This morning has given me some wasted fertile time to do the reflecting and the writing. As I prayed with the reading of the 5 wise and 5 foolish virgins many thoughts have surfaced. One that keeps playing in my mind is I cannot give my faith life to someone else, my spiritually is my spiritually . I recall the words Fr. John Ricardo often repeats to his congregation; “Faith is God’s work in me to which I respond.” So faith is a gift first and foremost given to me to respond to , to deny it or waste it. I know there were times in my life when I barely noticed the gifts of faith.Oh how I wasted it and threw it aside thinking I have more time, that is for old people. Well, now I am one of those old people I guess , wow I never thought I would get here. The other question that came up in one of the reflections on the gospel was, I’ m I too busy to respond to the gift of faith; boy that hit me right between the eyes. 

Now that takes me to the second part, wasted time or fertile ground. Lately I have pondered all the in-between times that I can utilize for prayer and reflection. What about when I am getting dressed , brushing my teeth, or taking a shower. Now this one especially for men  I think is a great place to utilize wasted time, now don’t get scandalized but we all do this, we use the bathroom some use it longer than others I know, but God does he really care where we find him and pray. A great wasted space. Driving in the car, stopping in traffic, waiting in a car pool line, waiting in line at the grocery store, I am sure you can think of many more. I have often felt I have my prayer time , my attachments to the way I pray, but no time for the Rosary or the Divine chaplet. Why not use these wasted spaces for that and make it fertile .

The month of October we prayed with our Blessed Lady who wants us to pray with her to her Son. Believe it or not that has been a difficult call for me to answer, as I pray as I can more easily with meditation and contemplation, from the word of God or with spiritual reading and imagination. But this month the Blessed Mother has been like her Son hounding me with messages to take up the Rosary again. How you may ask ?Well one very nice lady in church shared with me that Jesus told her to tell me of  the image she had of Mary crying tears, boy did that hit me where it hurts, right in the gut and right to my Spiritual Director.Someone else told me how she was being called to pray the Rosary again ouch, I am listening.Then last night after mass two parishioners are holding rosaries and telling me there stories of praying , one wanted to give  me a rosary ring and a pamphlet to pray it. Of course I had just prayed the Glorious mystery before Mass started and Friday Rich and I prayed the rosary in the car together, so it is not like I never do it or do not know how, their was a time in my life I was part of a rosary group, and a time when I prayed it everyday. I am listening now to the call to take it up again in the wasted time of my day, to use it for others and for myself, to make what is wasted fertile ground. Mary, Mother of God I am trying, I pray as I can not as I can’t. 

 

 

Perfect Union/Two Wills

Leave me not for I know not the value of my soul”(St. John of the Cross). St. Augustine also talks about in his Confessions that the hand acts so easily from the mind and its movement without much thought, but yet our conscience hesitates or denies that same movement. As a result our will denies the good we are called to be or to act upon, so we procrastinate or hesitate to listen to the voice that God has implanted in us. Oh good and gracious God give me the action that is so easily given to my hands, my hands that write so freely now with this pen, give that same movement to my minds actions. So when you ask me to love others like you love me, and to love them with your intense love I may do it as freely. May I respond with the words of St. Paul, it is no longer I who live but Christ who lives in me.

Many days my conscience calls me to act but I don’t, yet my hands move without even a thought  to clean something, to dress, to wash, to make a meal, to shake a hand or to hug someone.

I have only given this much thought today, how easy it would be to love if our minds were wired in that same way. But God gives freedom to our minds we have a choice, we can act with love, we can postpone, or never listen. God protect me from my own lack of response today. 

Seeds, Soil to Sacred

Todays words , Seeds , Soil , Sacred, or Time, Talent, Treasures. My seasons of life’ so clear in pondering and reflecting on these six words. Where I have been, where I am today and where I am going all depended on these six words. It really all depends on how much I desire to spend on those things that lead to an abundant life, a life that the Sower of the Seed wants me to spend time on in this lifetime and in this season. The problem occurs when I lose my focus, I become selfish, and the devil tempts me with worldly promises and worldly praise. Very recently I used a talk on a retreat from Pedro Arrupe SJ famous words, which are timely for todays gospel; 

Nothing is more practical than finding God, than falling in love in a quite absolute, final way. What you are in love with, what seizes your imagination, will affect everything. It will decide what will get you out of bed in the morning, what you do with your evenings, how you spend your weekends, what you read, whom you know, what breaks your heart, and what amazes you with joy and gratitude. Fall in love, stay in love, and it will decide everything.

Where is your seed today, on the path, on rocky ground, on good soil? Perhaps look at your checkbook and see where your treasure is? Mine unfortunately is way too revealing. It is spent on eating out , although not at high end restaurants but still eating out more than I eat home. Definitely something to look at and change.

What we must realize is when we discover what we really want and desire, it is what God really wants for us too. I know I can only find that when I go to the Sower each day in prayer, it is just showing up and being intentional and letting the Sower work in me and through me. It is faithfulness to time with God that we will bear good fruit  so we can stay on the path that grows good seed.

One last thought; to evangelize is important also, yesterday I listened to one of my favorite priests on a podcast from the Choices We Make television show. Fr. John  Ricardo suggested that when we are at a restaurant, which apparently I do a lot of, before we pray our blessing  do not wait for the waitress or waiter to leave to begin, but include them, ask them this question. We are about to pray the blessings is their something we can pray for you ? Wow, Ok so let me know if you try this and what responses you receive. It’s really that simple to share our life of faith. 

Thanks to everyone for your encouraging words to get me started on this blog. I have no idea what I am doing or how to change the colors yet, or even why God is using me in this way, as my grammar is terrible too, but I promise I will keep trying. I have to remember God chooses the simple folk to spread the message. May God bless you with Good soil today; yesterday we give to God’s mercy, tomorrow to God’s providence, today to God’s trust and love for us. With love and prayers, always, Diane.

It Begins my Spoken Heart

So today the Lord is speaking that I should post. I had a choice facebook or take the plunge into the blog universe. So I am here, not even sure how to navigate in this world or make this site beautiful with pictures and images yet. So please be patient with me.

In prayer I was with Joanna, one of the woman following Jesus. She left behind a lot, all her comfortable possessions and riches to follow Christ. How hard that must have been. When I think of my life and all I have what am I ready to give up to follow him completely.

But then I went to my favorite book of prayer, Divine intimacy. I feel called to quote from this today.” Do you know how to recognize the moments in which Our Lord visits your soul? A word read or heard, perhaps even by chance, and edifying example, and interior inspiration, a new light, which makes you see your faults more clearly and opens new horizons of virtue and of good- all are visits from Jesus. And you, how do you correspond? Is your soul sensitive to these lights, to these admonitions? Do you not sometimes turn your gaze away, fearing that the light you have glimpsed may ask you for sacrifices, which are too painful for your self-love? Oh! if you had always recognized the moment in which the Lord visited you! Try then to begin again today.”

During the rest of prayer time and spiritual reading Fr. Jacque Phillips reminded me that the life of prayer is not a technique to be mastered but a grace to be received. Will you receive his graces today, God is already there waiting for you.

Ok it’s done first hurdle , first blog post, God is good.